Book of D: The Love of My Life

Sara and I were not yet dating when this picture was taken, but there was a lot of mutual admiration and respect between us. 

We got each other's sense of humor and love of history, reading, politics, family, and love of love. Respectively, we had each been through heartbreaking relationships. Sara's was more complicated and hurtful than mine. I was in a relationship with someone else when this picture was taken, but the relationship just prior had been such a cacophony of confusion plagued by years of painful reflection and resolution. All I know is that the more time I spent with Sara, the more I wanted to be with her, just to talk and find other things we had in common. It was uncanny how vast our similarities were. Moreover, our  differences made our mutual attraction more sublime. It didn't take long, after Sara and I formed our friendship, to realize that we were each other's answer to the great love we each thought would surely allude us in our lifetime. When I supported her trials at different relationships with others, before our mutual attraction sparked, it came with great care and caution; awareness for her, her beautiful heart, and willingness to risk too much to find her great love. I wasn't jealous, I was just vigilant. I supported Sara's decisions to take chances at meeting others. One time, I even helped Sara pay for a trip to Chicago and loaned her my luggage (lol), so she could meet the person she had been communicating with online. Those pesky little chatroooms back in the day. Haha. I never partook in chat rooms or dating sites myself. Upon meeting Sara, I was with someone (Ronnie) whom had captured my heart, or so I thought. It was more of a physical attraction and probably a rebound relationship. A few months after my chance encounter with Sara, through a mutual friend of ours, I knew the relationship I had with Ronnie was superficial and not going to go further than the stale association it had become. When I started noticing my Sara in a different light other than a friend, my heart woke up and that was pretty much it for me. I made the first move on an evening that found us alone, chitchatting about trivial things. We were both tired. We had each worked earlier that day. I was a team lead at Target, Sara was employed at Mervyns. We had gone to work extremely early. She usually clocked in around 5 am, while I started at 7 am. I'd drive her to work then drive myself to Target. I didn't mind arriving earlier than my shift began because it allowed me time to reflect and plan for the day. I picked Sara up from Mervyns later that day as soon as my shift ended. I don't remember what we did before going home that fateful day. All I remember is being at the townhouse we shared with Ronnie. Ronnie was out galavanting with newfound friends of hers that I couldn't stand. Sara and I were drinking Miller Genuine Draft and snacking on our usual Doritos chips. At one point, I sat on the papasan chair that had traveled with me from San Antonio and had supported me (pardon the pun) through the other failed and grueling relationship, and Sara laid down on the floor. We were both in front of the fireplace and just talking and laughing, but we were getting tired as the night rolled by so passively and gently. We were talking about relationships when I went to the kitchen to get more beer. I had to step over Sara to get to the kitchen. When I returned to get resituated on the papasan, Sara, still laying down on the floor, turned herself over so that her belly was now touching the floor and her upper body was propped up by her elbows so she could see me as we talked. By chance, I looked down at her, and the light of the ambers cast such light on her, and it literally took my breath away. Her shirt was unbuttoned just enough that I saw her breasts. She had a tendency to lay down in this manner, and this night was not the first time that I had caught a glimpse of her breasts, but this was definitely the first time I really and truly noticed them. This was the first time I saw Sara in a different manner. My palms got sweaty, my heart skipped the ole proverbial beat, had I been standing, my knees would have certainly betrayed me and shed light to the sudden attraction I was fighting off for Sara. I got up again on the pretense of grabbing another bottle of spirits, but this time, on my way back, I stopped at Sara's feet, and she rolled over onto her back to look up at me. That's when I took my shot. I knelt down, my knees cradled her waist, I took her arms with my sweaty, nervous hands and placed them high above her head. I gently kissed her neck, and told her she had been looking for something that's been there this whole time. I then got up and sat back down on my friend, papasan. Sara sat up and questioned my actions. I don't remember verbatim what she asked because I was too busy imagining myself tearing her shirt open so that I could see and caress her beautiful breasts. Till this day, I love her breasts and it doesn't take much to rial me up whenever I see them. But, on that night, I wanted to kiss her breasts and to know the very essence of her sexuality. Something told me she was a sensuous lover, but I wouldn't find out that night. It would take a while for the friendship zone to open wide open for us to become lovers, but on that fateful night, I mentally made love to my voluptuous, beautiful Sara. My heart ached as did my own sexual essence; it all beat a million miles a minute, and I worried that my interest would soak through and exude on my friend, papasan, all my passion and sexual sweat. I wanted so much to just rip off her clothes, to touch her everywhere, to place my lips over her entire body, to caress her every being especially her special spot of decadent pleasure. I wanted to see her in agonizing rapture and to feel and taste her sexual ache. I wanted to kiss and taste her down there and to make her feel endless pleasure unlike she had ever known. I wanted her to be mine and mine alone. I wanted to make love to her until she screamed for me to stop so that I could continue to please her with more passion and deeper thrust. I didn't just want her to be mine, I wanted her special place to be mine. I wanted to feel it dripping wet while she yelled out my name and confirmed that she was mine; that her wet, throbbing sex spot was mine and mine alone.

Book of D: The Two Most Important People in My Life

This picture was taken around Christmas Eve, 1997.  Pictured are my current spouse, Sara, and my niece, Alex, who was a mere three years old.

Book of D: Kirk Land (the Former United States not the Chain)

America has become "Kirk Land!" Charlie Kirk! You cant go anywhere without hearing this guy's name. Whether you knew him, his idealogies, his rants, or whatever, you were forced to know about him following Kirk's tragic assassination on September 10, 2025. The killing of the conservative political activist has divided America even more than ever. Props to Charlie, though, he was zealous and an idealogue, but he was an extremely dangerous one (is there ever any other kind?). His views, verbal rants and debates put people like myself in danger . . . EVERY SINGLE DAY! He preyed on the less fortunate in the name of Jesus Christ. Nevermind that the name "Jesus" does not appear in the original Hebrew or Aramaic texts of the Bible; his given name was Yeshua. Okay. Whatevs. Charlie had several faults: Firstly, his negative outlook in life and belief system was programmed into him at an early age, and he didn't even see it. He thought he was a free-thinker, but he was merely a bot for Christian Nationalism. Charlie was chosen by the likes of Bill Montgomery because Kirk was able to ingratiate (brownnose) himself to people, young and old, while taking their money for the cause: Christian Nationalism. Montgomery was an ultra-conservative businessman and activist and co-founder (alongside Kirk) of the conservative student group Turning Point USA. Montgomery was a Tea-Party backer at the time of meeting Kirk. Kirk was just 18 years-old when he met Bill Montgomery; Kirk had been speaking at Benedictine University. Montgomery convinced Kirk to forgo college and instead make activism his career and to start Turning Point USA. Although many have alluded to Kirk being a "terrific debater," with thousands of videos of Kirk's Q & A debates with students and others floating around in social media world, Kirk was just a highly prepared public speaker. The false perception that Kirk was good at debating should be highlighted with an asterisk or a caveat to denote the simple truth: Kirk always had the advantage and power position because the debates took place on an unequal playing field. If a person has the behind-the-scenes knowledge of something like a debate, he has the power to play the game in his favor. It's like being handed a cheat-sheet prior to a major exam and passing with flying colors; not because you studied hard and knew the material, but because you already knew the questions, so the answers were automatic. Kirk had a bullshit knack for doing this "knowing the questions so the answers can easily flow."

Oh, and, don't get me started on the "Seven Mountain Mandate," which I will reference in a later post.

So, back to the reason for this post and why I said that Kirk's views and spews threatened my life on a daily basis, as well as threatened the lives of millions of other minorities in this "Kirk Land" country of ours; my reasons are aligned with the 14 Kirk quotes that the Huff Post included in their online media site. Every single quote by Kirk goes against my own personal views; moreover, his quotes give unfair views to others who believed him and in him to hate people like me. Not just to negate everything that makes me who I am, but to come after me, and millions like me, until we are either left destitute, without voice, or worse, without life. So, here are those 14 quotes. Read them. Do your own diligent research. 

If You're Wondering What Charlie Kirk Believed In, Here Are 14 Real Quotes 

 1. At a Turning Point USA event in 2023, Kirk said he thinks gun deaths are “worth it” to have a Second Amendment. “We must also be real. We must be honest with the population. Having an armed citizenry comes with a price, and that is part of liberty... We need to be very clear that you’re not going to get gun deaths to zero. It will not happen. But I think it’s worth it. I think it’s worth to have a cost of, unfortunately, some gun deaths every single year, so that we can have the Second Amendment,” he said.

2. On his self-titled radio talk show, Kirk expressed his dislike of the word “empathy.” “I can’t stand the word empathy, actually,” he said. “I think empathy is a made-up, new age term that does a lot of damage.” 

3. Appearing on Jubilee’s internet show “Surrounded,” Kirk insisted Black people were “better” in the 1940s under Jim Crow laws. While debating a college student, Kirk said, “They were actually better in the 1940s. It was bad. It was evil. But what happened? Something changed. They committed less crimes.” 

4. During this same Jubilee episode, Kirk was asked what he would want his daughter to do if she were 10 years old and pregnant following rape. After calling the scenario graphic, he responds, “The answer is yes. The baby would be delivered.”

5. At a Turning Point USA event, Kirk suggested trans people are wearing the gender equivalent of “Black face.” He said, “A man who calls himself trans is wearing ‘woman face,’ no different than I would wear Black face trying to be a Black person. It’s assuming an identity that isn’t yours.”

6. On his radio show, Kirk not only said that Joy Reid, Michelle Obama, Sheila Jackson Lee, and Ketanji Brown Jackson are “affirmative action picks”...

7. ...He also said Black women “do not have the brain processing power to otherwise be taken really seriously. You had to go steal a white person’s slot to go be taken somewhat seriously.”

8. After Taylor Swift and Travis Kelce announced their engagement, Kirk fantasized about Kelce making Swift “more conservative” and begged the pop star to “submit to her husband.” “This is something that I hope will make Taylor Swift more conservative,” he said. “Engage in reality more… Reject feminism. Submit to your husband, Taylor. You’re not in charge.”

9. On X, Kirk insisted, “Gun control, like vaccines and masks, is focused on making people feel ‘safe’ by taking freedoms away from others. Don’t fall for it.”

10. Following the tragic January collision between an American Airlines plane and a Black Hawk Army helicopter, Donald Trump suggested diversity, equity, and inclusion efforts were at fault. Kirk added to this, saying: “If I see a Black pilot, I’m going to be like, ‘Boy, I hope he’s qualified.’”

11. Following the release of an NBC poll illustrating the difference in priorities between Gen Z’ers — which showed that Gen Z women who voted for Kamala Harris see having a fulfilling career as a marker of success — Kirk said, “Democrat women want to die alone without children.”

12. Kirk repeatedly spread misinformation surrounding the death of George Floyd, who experts say died from an officer applying their knee to his neck. Instead, Kirk, who is not a medical examiner and did not examine Floyd’s body, said his death was caused by “overdose.”

13. Kirk wanted to raise the age of retirement, and didn’t think people should retire at all. “Now, I will say that for future retirees, people under the age of 45, we should absolutely raise the retirement age. I’m going to say something very provocative. I’m not a fan of retirement. I don’t think retirement is biblical,” he said. “You say, ‘Charlie, I’m just gonna retire and I’m just gonna go golf.’ I think, what a waste of the gifts that God has given you.”

14. And finally, but certainly not last: During Pride Month, children’s show host Ms. Rachel, aka Rachel Griffin-Accurso, wished followers a happy Pride and responded to subsequent backlash by quoting the Bible and expressing the importance of ”[loving] every neighbor.” In response, Kirk attempted to cite the Bible to prove a point about his anti-gay views, but he ultimately misquoted a mixture of passages from Leviticus 18:22 and Leviticus 20:13. He said, “Thou shall lay with another man, shall be stoned to death. Just saying... The chapter...affirms God’s perfect law when it comes to sexual matter.”

Book of D: Hassan Hosseinpour Helps Build Family Farm

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Book of D: Hassan's Father the Bully

Amir spoke about the "flaws of pride and arrogance" as he told of a story about a magistrate and a villager named Bahlul. The magistrate is bullying the villagers so they will pay their taxes. Amir told how Bahlul tricked the magistrate by using the magistrate's arrogance against him. Little did Amir realize that in telling this story, he mimicked the magistrate's arrogance because of how he has been bullying his middle son, Hassan, into getting married. Hassan is 24 years old and enrolled at the University of Shahrekord to become a teacher. Hassan does not want to get married before obtaining his college degree. Moreover, Hassan prefers a marriage to someone he knows really well rather than an arranged marriage. Especially because in the nomadic culture, consanguineous marriage is still the preferred more. If Amir keeps harping on his son Hassan to hurry up and marry a girl, Amir will become the fool in his own life story. Amir will be the fool that other fathers will tell their children about. The story will still be about "flaws of pride and arrogance," but this time, Amir will be the magistrate who tries to bully his villagers, and Hassan will be Bahlul, only this time, Bahlul won't go home and go to sleep, leaving the magistrate high and dry. Hassan, as Bahlul, will leave the village - never to return. 

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Book of D: The unReality of Lesbian Movies

As I watch Take Me for a Ride (2016, Ecuador), I am sadly reminded why I hated watching lesbian movies as a young adult. My distaste for them was mostly because they always ended badly.

I guess that societal norms and mores stemming from the bullshit zeitgeist was always going to govern how same-sex movies would end. After all, allowing a happy ending for behavior that has pretty much always been deemed taboo and forbidden might be too much for the uptight, perhaps misanthropic, naysayers and dream killers of this world. 

So, maybe not all real-life homosexual relationships survive for lengthy periods of time. Conversely, not all heterosexual relationships last long either. 

My take on the lesbian movies is simple: Let them end with a positive tone. If you're going to make a movie of this nature, let the 'happy ending' be. 

Stop depicting lesbian love as some kind of deathbound relation. A lot of the lesbian relationships that am closely familiar with are lengthy, happy ones.

Don't just write the happy relationship endings for 'straight' people; that's just a damn Hollywood ploy to sell romcoms to the highest, gullible bidder. Don't be that buyer. 

Dear Hollywood - or whatever movie-making entity that might be reading this, please - let my lesbian community be portrayed in a better light in movies. 

Stop portraying us as awkward, skiddish women who are too scared to fight for same-sex love. 

In my real lesbian world, true love is fucking worth fighting for. Movie makers of the world, start showing the world that kind of wonderful, glorious, victorious lesbian love. I'll be waiting!

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