Dora's Corner: Heartache: A Culmination of Love: Past and Present!

...For I am not Gatsby, but I have known a love so magnificent that mere mortals can never comprehend. I have had a Daisy in my life, but in my realm of the world, she came without a Tom.  Daisy has entered my once-happy life and cruelly swung a pendulum of so-called love right before my eyes, but just like her doppelgänger from the haunting novel, this Daisy retreats ever so mercilessly with the pendulum.  Like a thief in the night, she has denied me reciprocal love.  This Daisy mocks me, but she does it without realizing what she does, but still, I wonder...is she fully aware of her actions, yet willingly continues on a destructive path to tear up my world.  Robbing my world of a sweet love that I am certain that she has never known because she remains child-like in her rebellion of real love.  No, there is no Tom in this story who can be held liable for Daisy's crude and unbearable actions, but still, there remains so much disregard by this Daisy for the kind of love that I offer.  This Daisy continually avoids me and ignores me.  Her true beauty I am sure she does not see, perhaps she silently carries a disdain for herself which makes her unable to share her feelings and her love with another.  Poor, foolish me, it is I who must pay dearly for this Daisy's uncertainty and ambiguity which keeps her from extending any love to another.  Yes, poor me, I must also suffer in silence; silent lucidity indeed.  I must retreat or I will go mad, and I will forever be stuck in a maddening world from which there is no return.  I must continue to love in unnatural reticence.  Still, I keep on loving this Daisy regardless of where she is or how she feels - or does not feel.  It is my penance to admire her in shame, and to forever love her while I remain alone and lonely, heart-broken and heartless, hapless and unable to be happy.