Book of D: This is Almost It for "This Is Us" - Go, Ken, Go

Seriously. Using a train as a metaphor to represent the journey that is life was genius. I love and adore this show. I have been an avid fan and viewer since it started several years ago. The series has literally provoked every fucking emotion imaginable from my being. I freaking love that. So, with airing of the series' penultimate episode 'The Train' (Season 6, Episode 17), many thoughts were awakened. The episode incited many memories of times I lost a loved one. For example, I was taken back to when my Mom died - especially to the night before she died. It was all kinds of feels time. I was able to watch the episode alone since my spouse has been on a business trip with her employees. It actually worked out well that I watched 'The Train' episode alone. I needed to embrace certain thoughts and come to certain conclussions. I sort of embraced closure regarding certain events. It was such a poignant episode. It bothered me slightly when Rebecca saw Miguel, and he said she was still his favorite person in the world, and she responded with a flip gesture, then he just disappears. I get it. Miguel always cared deeper for Rebecca than she did for him. She was his one true love, whilst Rebecca's one true love would always be Jack. But, in the hour of serious pondering and questioning the realm of heaven, just who the fuck do we actully end up with in this so-called heaven. Seriously, folks, there are many questions that need answers by those who believe in a heaven. Who gets to be with who up there. And it is really north of us. When we die, do we get to live out all eternity with our parents, siblings, lovers, spouses, cousins. Just because we might want to reunite with our mom or dad in heaven doesn't really mean we will get to do that, right? Because what if their wish is to reunite with their parent. I mean, who the hell gets to be with who. It's just not logical at all to believe in a heaven. It is nonsensical. It's yet another man-made false promise to get people to be nice while they are here on earth: to be good humans for a possible reunification reward with loved ones. That's the very reason religion was created: to keep us humans in check. I don't know that I buy the idea of a heaven. A big part of me tends to believe that when we die, we just die and our bodies just decompose to become worm food. 

 ANYWAY . . . back to "This Is Us." So, at the end of her life, Rebecca was finally able forgive herself and find forgiveness from others who held key positions in her life. It has truly been a sublime series. But, it's what we've come to expect from "TIU" producer Ken Olin. Olin has been paramount in providing viewers quality storylines and loveable characters. After all, he first captivated our hearts in the late 80s as Michael Steadman in "Thirtysomething." And, who in the world can ever forget the episode when Gary dies. Ughhh. The heartbreak and jaw aching performance. Please, Ken Olin, bring us another masterpiece soon.