Well, my sleep pattern is all fucked up. I am faced with so many challenges, and in all honesty, I just don't want to face any of them. I just want to roll up and I don't know what. I sleep during the day. I make sure I fulfill my work duties, of course. I am on a break from grad school until the Summer semester begins on May 31st, so that's a blessing of sorts in that I don't have to worry about my clients. Right now, I am just perplexed. My life is a damn enigma. I texted the attorney yesterday to say I would move forward with them, but I have not heard back. I texted that lady from hell who scares the bejezzus outta me; let's hope she returns my text. I do not look forward to hearing from her at all. I just want to tell someone how she mistreated me and how negatively she spoke to me and how she's the big reason I haven't been able to make up my mind about hiring a lawyer. I am too damn old to let anyone push me around like this. I normally don't let anyone mistreat me or talk down to me, so it just mystifies me that this one lady can scare me so much. I just don't understand it at all. I am afraid of every thing anf every one these days. I just want to sleep and have no responsibilities. I wish I wasn't in this situation. My negative job security scares me; my grad school bills scare me; my grad school obligations scare me. I worry about things I did not used to worry about before this stupid car wreck. I wish things could go back before that guy rammed into my vehicle. Life was still complex, but I at least had direction and being scared was not in the cards. My back pain today is at a 7. The pills my doctor prescribed don't help me much. I don't know what would help me. Ughhh!
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